As a 74-year-old pastor I don’t get drunk, take drugs, shoplift, cheat on my taxes, have affairs, swear, look at porn, or even get angry. But I still struggle with sinning. I think a lot of wrong thoughts about other people and about myself. I say things that I wish I hadn’t said a few minutes after the word’s leave my mouth. I am lacking in self-control in controlling my thoughts, my words, and also in managing my time well, in managing our money, and in eating.
Psalms 106:6 We have sinned like our fathers,
We have committed iniquity, we have behaved wickedly.
Psalms 38:4 For my iniquities are gone over my head;
As a heavy burden they weigh too much for me.
-Every night I examine my life and confess all known sins to God.
1 John 1:9
If we confess our sins, He is faithful and righteous to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
-I pray and declare that I hunger and thirst for righteousness, and that I will diligently pursue righteousness.
– I acknowledge that apart from Him I am nothing and have zero ability, strength, or self-control to change my own life, but I can with His strength so I ask God to bless me with His supernatural power in my inner man.
I recognize that the journey to holiness is slow because of the strength of my flesh, the attractiveness of the world, and the cleverness of the devil, but I commit to going up, not down, and I will not plateau in my growth thinking that I am good enough.
I will faithfully maintain the spiritual disciplines of reading the Bible every day, spending time with God in prayer every day, memorizing and meditating on key Bible verses every day, gathering with other believers often, giving, thanking the Lord constantly for my life and blessings from Him, grumbling and complaining about nothing, constantly seeking advise and counsel from other successful and strong people around me, reading good books, and listening to sermons and lectures on podcasts.
Jesus is coming soon I think, and if He doesn’t come quickly, I have 10 to 20 years left to live before I enter eternity with my character and stand before Him and give an account of my life.