I am at a point in my life and ministry when it would be nice to slow down and relax a bit, but I doesn’t seem like I can yet. I get so agitated when I am not doing something significant, and pursuing some outlandish goal.
John 15:1-2 I am the true vine, and My Father is the vinedresser. Every branch in Me that does not bear fruit, He takes away; and every branch that bears fruit, He prunes it so that it may bear more fruit.
Every night I pray and ask the Father to prune me so that I can bear more fruit. I am not exactly sure what that means, “prune me”, but I do know that it results in more fruit and that is what I want. I want to do more, accomplish more, learn more, grow more, I want more. God said to Abraham in Hebrews 6:14 “I will surely bless you and I will surely multiply you.” That is what I want, for God to bless me and to multiply me.
The Apostle Paul was like this it seems for in Philippians 1:21-22 he says “For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain. But if I am to live on in the flesh, this will mean fruitful labor for me; and I do not know which to choose.” He says, “going to heaven would be nice, but bearing more fruit would be nicer”.
I am pretty sure that I am past the ego thing, the personal quest for significance through accomplishment, though I am always checking my motives to make sure that I haven’t drifted over that way even a little bit. I am motivated by people’s need of salvation and growth, but I am mostly motivated by my desire to please the Lord with my life.