One of the fun things about the “Prayer Summit ” is the friends I have made over the years and the opportunity to hang out with them here when I haven’t seen them since last year. One of the problems of life as I get older is I have a hard time remembering all of my friends. It is so frustrating to be sitting worshipping and praying with a bunch of guys looking around the room struggling to remember the names of many of them. I am pretty sure that when we get to eternity with our new glorified body that is like Jesus’s body I won’t have a memory problem. I will be able to remember every detail of every minute of my life along with names. Even though heaven will be heaven I think that my perfect memory will include sad things as well as happy things. I think my memories will include total recall of my failures and mess ups. Those memories will probably increase my praise for the Lord that I am actually in His presence because of what He did to pay for my sins. I sure wonder a lot about the details of eternity. Won’t be long now!

God manifests Himself in our life through people. God most often speaks to us through people. Our love for God is expressed in our love for people. John says to us in his Epistle 1 John, “how can you say you love God, whom you can’t see, when you don’t love your brother whom you can see?”

Today was the second day at the “Pastors Prayer Summit” at Cannon Beach Christian Conference Center. As I worshiped with, and prayed with, and ate with, and visited with 80 plus pastors I truly have had a blessed time with God that has been super refreshing for me. I hope I have had as much “God influence” on others as they have had on me.

in the evenings after everything is over it has been a joy to read the Bible, pray,  think and reflect after such a blessed day. I am looking forward to tomorrow.

I left the family dairy farm in Trout Lake, Washington and began pastoring Jefferson Baptist Church in Jefferson, Oregon the first Sunday of October in 1976 when I was 28 years old. I had very little knowledge, understanding, or skill in what I was supposed to do as a pastor. I had two years of college at Western Baptist Bible College majoring in Bible, but nothing in being a pastor. The church was small enough, about 20 people, and they were gracious enough that anything I did seemed to be OK. JBC actually grew and we bought land and built a small chapel that would seat about 150 people. We even built it with special offerings and with all in-house donated labor so that when we moved into it in October of 1979 it was all paid for. The next year went pretty good, but then in 1980 conflict began to happen. It was a lot of little things mostly that I did that people reacted to and got upset about. I worked hard to try and fix things, but it seemed like the harder I worked the worse it got. It seemed at times that I could do absolutely nothing without it causing some kind of reaction and complaining. More and more people left the church, and I got more and more depressed and frustrated with my failure and inability to lead and pastor in a way that created unity.

At the beginning of 1989 I had made up my mind that I had somehow missed it when I thought God was calling me to be a pastor and I needed to quit and go back to dairy farming, however I could make that happen. I was pursuing a number of options in that direction when I recieved in the mail an invitation from Dr Joe Alldrich, President of Multnomah Bible College in Portland Oregon to go away for 4 days to Cannon Beach Conference Center with a group of about 60 other Pastors from the greater Salem area and pray for God to bring revival to the State of Oregon.  Very reluctantly I went, and while I was there the first week of February, 1989 God worked in my life in a very powerful way.  While there I made a commitment that I would  remain a pastor and I would stay at JBC until I died unless they kicked me out which seemed a very real possibility.   I also made a major commitment to prayer as a way of life, not just something I did along with dozens of other things, but that prayer would be the number one activity of my life. I would devote myself to being a man of prayer. I wrote 7 specific goals in regards to the discipline and activity of prayer and have been pursuing those goals ever since.

The last 26 years since that water-shed event in my life have been characterized by God blessing my life and ministry well beyond what I was actually capable of accomplishing in my own skill level. These years have been very much an adventure with God building His church.  I have been back to the “Pastors Prayer Summit” at Cannon Beach every year since 1989 and I am here now as I write this blog. This is my 26th year and I always come expecting for God to meet me and work in my life. It is the end of the first half day and that is already true. I can’t wait for the next couple of days and see what is going to happen to me.

Who could’ve predicted a super bowl ending like that!!?? Wow! What is interesting now is all the discussions on “why?”, “what if”, “if only”.  I don’t know how many times I have made a choice I thought was best, and then it blew up in my face, and then I thought, ” Oh, why did I do that!”. How I wish I could have a “do over” on that one! Probably the worst choice I ever made was to farm on my own instead of sticking with my Dad. That resulted in major failure and loss of lots of money and major blow to my pride, but only about 20 people really knew about it. It is hard to imagine making a choice that millions of people see on television and critique  for months to follow.  A Bible verse that I think about a lot is 1 Corinthians 4:5 which says, “Therefore do not go on passing judgment before the time, but wait until the Lord comes who will both bring to light the things hidden in the darkness and disclose the motives of men’s hearts; and then each man’s praise will come to him from God.” I wonder as I read and meditate on the meaning of that verse what is the extent of the audience of the phrase “bring to light the things hidden in the darkness”. I hope it isn’t all of heaven that gets to see what I thought I had hidden well!! I guess I better make sure I have confessed all known sin to God so He will cast it into the deepest sea to never remember again!!

last day of anything anymore prompts me to think about the last day of my life. I am getting especially anxious for that day, the last day of my life. Then I begin the first day of eternity with my new glorified body in a perfect invironment with a perfect King. Impossible to anticipate anything of this next segment of my existence. It is all over and above anything previously experienced. I can’t call it the next chapter, a chapter is to short, the next segment sounds good. I wonder what it will feel like to live inside a perfect body?? I wonder what thoughts will flow into my mind the first time I see Jesus? There will be so many firsts! My mind will be super sharp so I won’t be overwhelmed, my emotions will be perfect and complete so it won’t be surreal. I can sit for hours starring out to nothing in particular pondering and wondering what eternity will be like. It is sad to think there are those whose eternity will be agony. I am committed to doing as much as I possibly can to change the eternal destiny of as many people as possible in the time God has given me.

I am trying to decide what my next big project will be. I pretty much have my aquaponics system running fairly smoothly. Feed the fish 3 or 4 times a day and watch everything grow. It will be a couple of months before I start eating anything from my greenhouse, fish or vegetable.

i think I am going to start on my 3 wheeled car. It is basically a three wheeled motorcycle with a two passenger cab with car seats. You basically build the whole thing out of plywood, foam, and fiberglass and then build a front axle and steering mechanism and an engine box out of steel tubing . It would get 40 to 80 mpg depending on the engine I use. I bought the plans already and it is one of the goals I wrote for myself this year.

I wonder if the urge to build things, create things, comes from being created in God’s image? I also have the goal to teach myself taxidermy from video classes I bought and mount my bear and then the mountain lion I killed this year. That will be fun, for sure! Maybe I can do both!!

I also have the goal to rebuild a 1986 Ford pickup with a 300 inline 6 engine. I have it in my garage mostly torn apart so I should do that so it doesn’t sit in my shop blocking all kinds of other projects. I have bought the Manuel and joined a Ford inline 6 forum in order to ask questions from the experts! I guess I could do all three!!??!! Build the 3 wheeled car, do a full  body mount of my bear and mountain lion, and rebuild my Ford pickup! I could work on one project for 2 days and then switch.  That way I wouldn’t get bored. And

once in a while I will do something kind for another person totally motivated by a deep sense of compassion for them. But most of the time I will do something kind, something that meets a real need and is timely, because it is the right thing to do. I will do it because it is my duty. I will do it because I am very sure it is what God wants me to do. But I don’t really want to do it, I don’t feel like doing it, and it wouldn’t take much of a lapse in self control to just ignore the situation and forget it. So if I do a kind deed for someone out of a sense of duty is it as “good” as a deed done from a strong inner sense of compassion or even love? What if I make a commitment in my mind to tell Patty my wife 5 times a day that I love her because I know she likes it, not because I have any strong sense of romantic love towards her. I would define my use of the word love as a strong commitment to faithfulness and to do whatever I could to make her happy, as her husband that would be my duty.

I was mulling this over in my mind the other day as I was thinking about a discussion with a lady who was at our recent seminar. She asked me a question about my motivation to do the seminar. I told her that I had identified 4 major motivators in my life, 1st level is fear of loss, 2nd level is hope of reward, 3rd level is love of person, and the highest or most Nobel of motivators was duty. Her response was that she thought duty should be just above fear of loss. I didn’t argue with her.

It didn’t really matter to me if she thought I was right, but as I was mulling this over in my mind, I thought, “it is important that I think I am right”! As I reflected about this I came to this conclusion, “a man who does what he does because it is right, because it is his duty, because it is what God wants will be faithful day in and day out, good days and bad days, because duty rises above circumstances and emotions.

This nasty cold has gotten me to thinking about stuff I don’t like. Why do I have a cold?  If I prayed and really had faith would God take it away? Could it be that this cold is God’s plan for my life in a small way. Doesn’t God care that this head ache and runny nose and fever is making me miserable?

The theology called “prosperity gospel” says that if God really is a God of love that He will take trials and pain out of my life. God is judged by the comfort level of ones life. He is trusted and declared good when circumstances are pleasant. The content of prayers is “fix my life”! One person’s comment was, “God owes me a break”, really?

The truth is, ” life is hard, and will get harder by God’s design”. Why?? God’s plan is to mold and shape our character to be like His own, and an easy, comfortable life does not do that. But we forget! This life is short and then we will spend eternity in heaven with Jesus experiencing the perfect life, if we have trusted Him as our saviour.  As we live this tough life He will give strength to whoever asks, He will give joy in spite of trials to whoever asks, when there is great anxiety He will give peace to whoever asks. Life is hard and will get harder and harder but I trust God totally and look forward to stepping into eternity and getting a new body and living in a place of perfect joy forever.  In the mean time I will trust God that He loves me and will cause the best to happen to make me like Himself so that when I get to heaven I will be like Him and He can enjoy me and I can enjoy HIm forever. I am resolved to not complain or grumble about a cold or anything else that I don’t like. It will pass and soon I will be with Him.

i haven’t had a cold in several years but I got a doozy now. Wasn’t feeling to good yesterday, but I could function fine, just a sore throat and runny nose. My alarm went off this morning at 4:30 so I could get to prayer at the church by 5 and I felt awefull. Fever, head ached, muscles ached, coughing and wheezing, sinuses packed. I decided that I better not go to the church and infect everybody so I took some cold medication and went back to bed. I have been sitting around the house all day whining to Patty getting very little sympathy. I consider myself a tough guy, but a little cold has turned me into a wimp. I guess the best thing to do is load up on cold medicine that makes me sleepy, go to sleep and hope when I wake up I am all better.

today was the start of the “Five Days of Prayer” corporate prayer event at JBC for our missions ministry around the world. We pray from 5 to10 am and 5 to 10 pm each day this week, Monday through Friday. I prayed 8 of the 10 hours today not because I was expected to as the pastor but because our prayer times like this are some of the most spiritually renewing times for me.  I have a very strong sense of God’s presence during these times that very few other events in my life can equal. Sitting in my chair at home writing this after today I feel an incredible sense of peace and security in God’s love for me. Our prayer times are fairly bland in terms of energy and programming. Any where from 10 to 30 people are sitting in our prayer chapel together. Pastor Mike shares a bit about some missions ministry or missionaries that we support and then we pray one at a time as people feel comfortable and led for about 30 minutes and then we take a 15 minute break for snacks and coffee and chit chat, and then we do it again. People come and go through  out the entire 5 hours in the morning and evening as their schedules dictate. We have 20 plus churches that we have started in Sierra Leone, West Africa and that many schools as well plus a number of other ministries to help people in this poorest of countries. As you can imagine the Ebola sickness was a major focus of our praying as we interceded for this country asking God to work and bless. It is almost 11 pm and I will make it to bed about midnight and then up at 4:30 to make it down to the prayer chapel by 5 am. This will be a very exhausting week as I do my normal pastor stuff and fit in 40 hours of praying as well, but Friday evening when it is over I will feel sad that it is over and I will also have this very strong sense that we have moved the hand of almighty God, and lives around the world will be impacted in incredible ways that we probably won’t know about until we get to heaven and get to meet them. I am most blessed to be a part of this great work.