Giants

When I was 22, I borrowed $40,000 and started my own small dairy. My goal was to grow it and to become a very successful dairy farmer. My cows picked up a disease when they were being trucked to my dairy, and in less than one year, half of them died, and I had to sell the remaining ones. I was left with a huge debt, which seemed impossible to pay off. I found a well-paying job, worked very hard, and, in two years, I was debt-free. Over the years, most of the hard circumstances that came into my life were like that, very hard, but ones I could conquer and solve with hard work, wisdom, godly counsel, and God’s strength. I enjoyed the challenge of being an overcomer and recognized the character growth I experienced as I faced and solved problems that God brought into my life. As I have gotten older, I have faced more and more difficult circumstances and trials that I can’t solve or fix. My brother-in-law has pancreatic cancer, my son-in-law has colon cancer, my sister has a severe depression and anxiety disorder, another son-in-law is in a wheelchair, Patty came home from the hospital today with some kind of infection in her hip that is causing her great pain that has the doctors baffled, many of my really good friends have cancer, many others have already died, and the circumstances in the world around me are getting crazier by the day. I can pray, and I do, but I am always careful to end my prayer with, “not my will but yours be done.” Everybody is going to die sooner or later, and there is nothing I can do about that. Now the challenge of my life is to trust God, to rejoice always, to grumble and complain about nothing, to be anxious about nothing, and to be a very attractive advertisement for Jesus as Savior because of my overflowing joy. The old problems were like climbing a mountain; they were done, conquered, and then we moved on to bigger problems to solve. Now the problems stay, get bigger, and the great challenge in life is not letting what I used to conquer conquer me. Now I live in the midst of giants that I used to kill and drive out of my life. But now they don’t go away. The great daily challenge of my life now is to laugh at the giants, shake my fist in their face, and not let them intimidate me. 

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