Occasionally I need to remind myself why I do what I do, to focus on my one main motive in life, and that is to know the Lord Jesus more and more. As the Apostle Paul said in the book of Philippians, “I consider everything in life to be garbage in view of the surpassing value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord.” So, all of my spiritual disciplines are part of my effort to seek the Lord with all of my heart, claiming the promise that if I seek Him I will find Him.
This week I have been getting up at 4:30 am and going to the church to pray with others in our church. I have been praying about 6 hours each day, and along with that I am fasting for the five days of our prayer event. As a result of less sleep and no food I get weary, and have to do some serious self-talk to stay faithful to the goal that I have set for this week. The key thing to keep myself motivated is to remind myself that my motive is to know Jesus more, not just to be self-controlled.
While I am sitting in the prayer room listening to others pray and agreeing with them, I am memorizing scripture, writing down on paper the gist of the prayers that others are praying, I am also writing down thoughts that come to my mind, and doing some reflective thinking about my relationship with the Lord.
The disciplines are designed to focus and to train my mind and heart to keep Jesus first place in my life. A motto of my life is “I don’t grow close to Jesus by trying harder, but by training better, and I grow spiritually a little bit at a time by staying faithful to my training routine and rhythm.
It has been a good week of prayer and I have grown as a result.