I talk a lot about character traits. I have identified 26 character traits in the Bible, and my goal is to grow in each. I evaluate myself, ranking the 26 from top to bottom, and I ask Patty to do the same, and occasionally I ask friends. Several character traits I have considered significant strengths in my life have taken a nose dive lately, and I don’t know why. It definitely concerns me, and I am making a herculean effort to reverse this trend.
Self-control has been one of my strengths for years, but now it is quickly sliding to the bottom. I am not sure if it is old age or what, but I don’t like being a wimp when it comes to things controlling my life. One of the areas is with my eating. I am allergic to gluten and white sugar. A year ago, I discovered that they were what was giving me my Parkinson’s symptoms. I didn’t have Parkinson’s; I had Parkinson’s symptoms caused by food allergies. I quit eating all gluten and white sugar, and I started feeling really good compared to what I had been experiencing. However, I discovered that I could fudge a little bit on my diet and not be affected, so I would have an occasional bowl of ice cream. At first, I was good and kept the occasions at least a week apart and a small bowl. But I started increasing both the volume and frequency, and I end up back where I was in my tremors, loss of balance, muscle cramps, and rigidity. So, I repent and go back to zero sugar and gluten. It takes a few days to get it out of my system, and I do it all over again.
It makes me feel like such a weakling to have something control me like that. It is funny how messing up in one area also seems to slide into other areas. I have started missing an occasional day of Bible reading. It has been years since I have missed a day, and now I have suddenly missed several days. Not all together, but a day here, another last week, and one this week. I have been occasionally missing my bike riding and weight lifting as well.
1 Corinthians 9:25-27 are some of my memory verses; I better start meditating on them daily.
“Everyone who competes in the games exercises self-control in all things. They then do it to receive a perishable wreath, but we an imperishable. Therefore I run in such a way, as not without aim; I box in such a way, as not beating the air; but I discipline my body and make it my slave, so that, after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified.”