Today was an 81 mile ride with a big monster hill at the end, 2000 feet up and 2200 feet down. The downhill was almost 10 miles so that was a long way with virtually no pedaling. I am writing this as a reporter of what the riders said because I drove the motorhome today.

Tonight we are in an RV campground in Santa Barbara. It is just a paved parking lot with electricity posts, water spickets, and sewer pipes between each spot. Pretty basic RV spot.

It is hard to believe that we only have 4 days of riding left, boy it goes fast. I am going to ride my bike tomorrow. I am determined to do it. Every night I say I am going to ride and then when I wake up my legs muscles are in knots, and I psyche myself out of riding. I am determined not to let that happen tomorrow.

Part of the problem is with my new medication. I looked up the side effects today and it says that some develop addictions to gambling, uncontrolled spending, and sexual addictions that they can’t control because of the medication. I am feeling a heightened sense of anxiety since starting the new meds, but Since I know where that is coming from I am determined to not let it control my decisions.

Now that I have written this I am more determined than ever to not let my flesh control my behavior or my decisions. I know that tomorrow evening I will need to write what I did, ride or wimp out. We will see.