The worst experience for me in all of life is to do something that I teach against. I feel like a total wimp and a hypocrite when I do. The last couple of days I have let myself get into a downward cycle of self-pity, and depression and have made little attempt to pull myself out of it, just sort of soak and sour.

I teach that we are to take every thought captive to the obedience of Christ, and we do that by meditating on scripture verses that apply to what we are dealing with. I know that, I teach that, so why am I letting myself do this negative thinking stuff. It is probably a result of a number of things, but I am on the mend now.

Being in the dumps is a miserable place to be especially when you know it is self-inflicted, that makes it even worse. But the cool thing about being a Christian is that confession and repentance really does work. My self-talk goes like this, “OK, do you want to stay here the rest of your life? NO! How about a year? NO! How about a week? NO! How about a day? NO! I am sorry Lord, You are wonderful to me, life is amazing, I am of all people most blessed, Thank You! Thank You! Thank You! Heaven is a wonderful place! Thank You for giving me that wonderful gift! I am sorry for thinking like a fool, thank You for forgiving me! “

The next thing I do is journal in detail to embed the principle of right thinking into my head and heart. The good thing that comes out of these occasional bouts of stupid thinking is that I can teach what I teach about positive thinking with increased passion, this is no hypothetical lesson, it is very real.