i am self aware. I carry on a conversation with myself all day long. I have thoughts that I know and nobody else does. I think about my future, my past, my likes, and my dislikes. Self awareness is not something I think about often, but occasionally the awareness of it and the truth of it just sort of washes over me. Some think that our existence has no meaning, no purpose, no plan, but as I think about my existence my aliveness, my iniqueness, and the very strong sense of “future”  I believe without a doubt that I am eternal, that is I will never cease to be self-aware, to be alive, to talk with myself, and to anticipate and plan the future. God created me as an act of His will with a plan for my life. His  premeditated planning, and giving me existence so that I can know Him and live with Him is a great act of love. I exist, I exist, I exist, I exist, so amazing, so mind boggling, such a mystery. I will live my future with Him, in His presence with incomprehensible joy or I will live my future away from Him, separated, with no joy, zero.  If I really want to live with God forever I choose to believe in Him, to seek Him, to need Him, to draw near to Him.