In the early days of ministry Monday’s were awful. I wanted in the worst way to quit and go back to farming almost every Monday. I was emotionally wrung out, I felt like the sermon I preached was the worlds worst, and all I could think about was all the dumb things I had done and said that past week. Those days are in the past and I am so thankful. Occasionally I will have a bit of a blue Monday like today. Now when I am feeling blue it isn’t because of thinking about what I have done or not done, it is caused by thinking about others that I know who are drifting away from the Lord who used to be so in love with Him. As I think about these people and pray passionately for them I ponder about how that happens. The quick answer is the devil does it and I am sure he has a major role, but I think the major culprit is the world and the stuff in it. The Bible says, “if anyone loves the world the love of the Father is not in him”. It is so easy to begin loving the world and the things in it in a subtle way that is not even measurable, but then it grows a little bit, and a little bit more and before long you have little love for God left in your heart and at that point if you recognize how far you have drifted you don’t even care. And almost everyone will say, that will never happen to me. I pray for everyone in the church every week and I keep people in my prayer journal for at least a year after the last time I have seen them in church. Today as I prayed it seemed like I was going through a large number of those people, and well, it just made me sad.
Thanks for your blogs, Dee. I love reading them. I agree, this is also the saddest part of ministry for me. It was a good reminder for me this morning to keep praying for the people God brings to my mind.
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