I got accepted into the OhSU Parkinson’s center today. I haven’t done much with Neurologists up to this point with my Parkinson’s. Just sort of ignoring it and doing the basic medicine has worked ok up to this point. Parkinsons is progressive so I knew the day was coming when I would have to take this step. I work very hard at never worrying about anything so when I started a bit of fretting today about the unknown I played a little mental game with myself. I tried to imagine what I would be thinking and feeling if I had no faith in God and believed that when I died I just turned to dirt and all self consciousnes was totally over. The thought seemed so sad. That everything that I had experienced, thought, said was totally for nothing. I wondered how anybody could live with that kind of worldview, but many do. OK enough of that depressing thinking!! I know there is a God who created me with a purpose and plan, who loves me and is in total control of my life. I trust You Lord totally and I love You and I look so much forward to the day I see You and get my new body and live forever in heaven with You. Oh my, that feels so much better!!